Poems about fear

Want to play a game?

Want to play a game?
Ok, when do we start?
We already have.
What are the rules?
Those are mine, at a whim they will change.
How do you win?
You don't.
What is the purpose?
My amusement.
I don't want to play.
Too late.
Enough I am not playing with you.
You have no choice.
I can leave.
No you can't
Watch me.
You are still here.
Stop!
Why?
I don't like this it's pointless.
There is a point to everything.
Then what is the point to this?
To break you.
I am done!
Almost.

Following faeries

"Come follow me, " the faerie said,
"friends, fun, and freedom's ahead."
I went long behind happily,
and then learned how it was to be.
In this trap all easily fell,
our every fear she would quell.
Following this plan of her making was she,
she the Queen and her loyal subjects were we.
Merrily blinded was our happy little band,
not seeing the suffering caused by her hand.
Soon for us no wrong could she do,
the fault found was always with you.
One of us; her prize picked from the bunch,
to be tortured and twisted and devoured for lunch.
The golden little faerie who'd controlled the group some,
in taking complete control, a dragon had become.
With a struggle and a fight her prize was free,
found, cared for, and protected by me.
Another was soon chosen to take his place,
without a glance towards her he raced.
For the dragon by everyone wasn't yet seen,
to some she was as she'd always been.
To those of us with now complete sight,
had fallen the task of this painful fight.
To end the control of this one we'd loved,
our friend first must be forcibly moved.
The guilt slowly welled up for all the rest,
as she'd created this group of friends, this nest.
How could we turn her out now,
when bringing us in she'd helped all somehow?
Our loving friends all with a hand to lend,
must painfully off her evil now fend.
This battle we still fight now,
I can't predict when it will end or how.
But a clear warning I must send to you all.
when beckoned by the faerie, make sure the dragon will fall.

Glances, questions...

Glances,
Questions.
Awkward silence.
Time passes   as distance deepens.
 
Words spoken,
Sharp as daggers,
Cleave the air.
Secrets betrayed   and trust shattered.
 
Run or stay?
Brick by brick,
Walls grow and envelope
Then they blot out the sky.
 
Winding pathways   leading you astray,
Bones unseen beneath.
Trampled and   awaiting discovery.
Voices echo as ghosts   peer around corners.
 
Miles of confusion
Chaos eclipsing common sense.
Every stone a loss of self.
Beloved friends and family   lost in battle.
Until only memories remain.
The lost souls   haunting the present.
 
Shadows grow stronger,
As reality fades.
Flights of fancy
Free the enslaved.
Until only the body remains.
 
Shame, regret, anger
Then finally pain
Complete the descent.
A door opens...
A light glimmers.
The flame is extinguished.
 
The door closes   as the key turns,
Silence echoes   as space shrinks.
One by one they say goodbye,
Silent screams   as reality strikes.
 
Darkness unfolding,
Promises of relief.
Caught in the middle,
Torn between light and dark.
Seeking anonymity.
 
A hand beckons,
Fear paralyzing
Voices echoing a warning   too late.
A few steps then falling.
The ground gone,
Fog above and black below.
 
Frantically searching   for a foothold,
Only finding walls of glass.
Faces peering in.
Air pulling in all directions.
Winds cycling until   a tornado of chaos.
 
Dazed and disoriented,
Fact and fiction   indistinguishable.
Lines curving   until patterns are obscured.
Time spinning   faster and faster
Then lost as it is   suspended...
 
A hand appears in the fog.
Defying fear and gravity...
You grasp it tightly.
Not knowing where you go   or who is leading.
Blindly following.
 
Heart racing,   breaths coming short
Knowing this   your final chance.
A gamble of good vs. evil.
Life and death.
I close my eyes and leap.

Ambivalent post-break up feelings

Thoughts of you ram me from my senses.
Why can't you go?
I grasp at everyone, every moment.
I'm still wishing for a few more.
...i miss you...
I gave you the liberty to go.
I didn't just stand back, I helped you leave.
I made it easy for you to walk your destiny.
I cut my heart out for you, so you wouldn't have to.
Why can't anyone make it easy for me?!
I desperately cling to your faint existance.
I hope it leaves my life.
A new twist on an old theory--
If I can't have you, leave me the fuck alone!
Alone...I am alone, you're not really here.
...i need you...
You wouldn't extend my freedom, yet I gave yours.
And off you went, with part my very essence.
I let it go easily with wishes and love.
With a mind screaming, a soul twisting.
Why do they leave me in this place?!
...don't go...

You think you're weak. I think you're strong

You think you're weak. I think you're strong
You wonder how you stuck around this long
Every day seems worse than the day before
Not sure you will be able to take this anymore
you have been together forever; but that's not a reason to stay
It's not your fault he treats you this way
You have a choice to get up and leave
to take a stand for what you believe
To replace those bad memories, with something new
To be with someone who truly loves you
I know it's hard and that you are afraid
Don't focus on the past and the mistakes that you have made
Use your strength and open your eyes
and you will see some light through those stormy skies
For every insult and every bruise, you ever took
For every demeaning and disrespectful look
For every friend he made you lose
and every time he made you choose
For every sleepless night
for every single horrible fight
For every smile he turned into a frown
For every time you cringed when he was around
For all these things, use this as your strength to leave
You are so much better than this, you just have to believe
Know you are beautiful, that you are strong
Know that this is not where you belong
Know that you can have such a beautiful life, and be loved deeply and true
You just have to find the strength I know you have deep inside of you.
And if you feel you can't do this on your own and you need a little help
Know that I was standing right beside you this whole time, and you don't have to do this by yourself.

Ring around the rosy

Ring around the rosy
A pocket full of secrets
Pains and dreamy times kept safe
All for the time to come
Fear is all around the rosy
Pockets full of fear, fear, fear
All at peace until the time comes
When all will come in pieces
Watching, listening, dreading too
How will it happen?
How will it do?
What will become of me?
What will it do?
Who am I?
Who is who?
Are you, you?
They are...they them, too?
But where will they go?
I want them, still,
For they are for me so
Me so, me so...
So who I am is they also, too
But when the time is here...
Who will take care of us...of us?

And not appear

How do I ask for help,
and not appear desperate?
How do I lean on you,
and not appear weak?
 
How do I cling to you,
and not appear needy?
How do I admit I can't,
and not appear useless?
 
How do I wait for you,
and not appear helpless?
How do I think of myself,
and not appear thoughtless?
 
How do I hold the rage,
and not appear emotionless?
How do I give it away,
and not appear worthless?
 
How do I talk about it,
and not appear whiney?
How do I protect my demons,
and not appear self-destructive?
 
How do I not harm you,
and not appear distant?
How do I crack this shell,
and not appear?

Revenge

I am playing, again,
someone else's game.
No rulebook, no knowledge,
unsure if
the rules are changing.
You claim to have returned
with the intentions
of receiving your revenge.
So sure you'll succeed.
So sure I'll fall.
Not knowing what stops you.
A regard for me?
I doubt it.
For her?
You negate.
I am left behind,
and wondering,
is this your revenge?
New games with my mind
already so fragile.
You know it so well.
Well enough to convince me
to play along.
(maybe)
I wouldn't.
Lost and confused
and left to wonder.
I shared so much.
Trusted too much.
Accidental revenge.
I wonder if there is such a thing.