i cant.. think of being with anyone now that i have- been through that.. its- so hard to just.. exist.. now..? i honestly- came to this because i was looking for things to help with another thing, but once i figured out this was a trauma site i figured why not post y'know? i dunno.. relationships on its own are so hard. and just with my past s/o doing- that- it was so hard to go through. i dont know if i'm gonna get any kind of response, but i just kinda need someone to be here for me i guess? because everyone i know is asleep.