I am sorry your life is so chaotic...that the issues between your mother and father are impacting on you and your happiness. Imo aspects of your mothers behaviour such as providing porn to your friends and letting them smoke, throwing things at you show a lack of adult judgement and control. And like you wonder why she choses to engage in these damaging behaviours.
Here you about being diagnosed as a diabetic...that your mother has littles sense of or care to support your dietary needs.
A good thing I can see in your situation is that you are now an adult ..do not need to rely on your parents any more - can now make you own decisions - get informed about controlling your diabetes and start exploring ways to move out of your parents' home. I know as a currently unemployed woman this is not an easy step to take however there are agencies who provide support for people living with abuse - I turned to my local DV shelter, they helped me to explore my various options and helped me to develop a plan to do this in an effective way. I know that leaving may not be easy - probably will mean living in some sort of shared accommodation however for me that would be preferable to living as you describe. Other thing as an adult you no longer have a right to call on your parents to support you instead they have the right in law to tell you to leave if you tell them you do not like the way they treat you or each other.
Hope what I have shared helps
Seems that sometimes fate does not give us anything like ideal parents - remember counting down the days till I was 18 and could leave and take control of my life.
I hope what I have shared helps
Here you about being diagnosed as a diabetic...that your mother has littles sense of or care to support your dietary needs.
A good thing I can see in your situation is that you are now an adult ..do not need to rely on your parents any more - can now make you own decisions - get informed about controlling your diabetes and start exploring ways to move out of your parents' home. I know as a currently unemployed woman this is not an easy step to take however there are agencies who provide support for people living with abuse - I turned to my local DV shelter, they helped me to explore my various options and helped me to develop a plan to do this in an effective way. I know that leaving may not be easy - probably will mean living in some sort of shared accommodation however for me that would be preferable to living as you describe. Other thing as an adult you no longer have a right to call on your parents to support you instead they have the right in law to tell you to leave if you tell them you do not like the way they treat you or each other.
Hope what I have shared helps
Seems that sometimes fate does not give us anything like ideal parents - remember counting down the days till I was 18 and could leave and take control of my life.
I hope what I have shared helps