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My husband and I have been together for 12 years. He has undiagnosed and untreated depression. Has for years. We moved to a rural area approx 3 years ago and the isolation is super tough on him.
He gets so angry and is triggered so easily. There has never been any physical abuse but emotionally and mentally I’m about to break. This morning he was throwing things around and yelling. I had errands to run and he said he wouldn’t be there when I got back. He’s always telling me he wants to die.
We don’t have a family doctor and mental health supports aren’t plentiful where we live. He refuses treatment anyways.
I feel sick to my stomach sometimes completely numb others. When he starts yelling and nagging at me I feel so worthless. I’ll sleep for hours and do nothing. This leads to him telling me I do nothing. When I truly think about it though I compare how I’m feeling to what he must be feeling and put my own emotions aside. Honestly just enabling hurtful actions. I’m feeling pretty lost right now.
He gets so angry and is triggered so easily. There has never been any physical abuse but emotionally and mentally I’m about to break. This morning he was throwing things around and yelling. I had errands to run and he said he wouldn’t be there when I got back. He’s always telling me he wants to die.
We don’t have a family doctor and mental health supports aren’t plentiful where we live. He refuses treatment anyways.
I feel sick to my stomach sometimes completely numb others. When he starts yelling and nagging at me I feel so worthless. I’ll sleep for hours and do nothing. This leads to him telling me I do nothing. When I truly think about it though I compare how I’m feeling to what he must be feeling and put my own emotions aside. Honestly just enabling hurtful actions. I’m feeling pretty lost right now.